Another Day, another concern.

My last post was all abut feeling confident about a big blue wave coming on November 3rd. The day I wrote that post I was seeing hope online, and hearing strong voices, and just feeling like ‘we got this’ and humanity will win on Election Day.

But today is another day.

Every day brings something in the news that disheartens me. Yesterday it was our president tossing out verbiage about throwing out all the ballots and him just staying on as president. Haha. Was he joking? No, he was not. Our president, instead of saying that democracy is the way of our land, and a sure and safe election is most important And he will do anything he can to preserve the vote, he puts doubt out there. He speaks like he will stay on as a dictator. No plan to follow the constitution mind you. No reason to think our election will be accurate. No assurance that every vote will be counted.

If that doesn’t turn your stomach then I don’t even know what to say.

I had an interesting back-and-forth private messaging conversation with a woman who lives in Michigan and who says she is ‘red in her being.’ We tried our best to keep the discussion civil and we pointed out the areas we are alike. Both women, both Christian. I asked her some pointed questions about Trump, and about his lies, and how he constantly belittles. Her response was she votes on ‘policy.’ And I get that, because to vote for HIM is absurd, and even she probably knows it. As we talked policy issues she stood strong on banning abortion, and the economy. She told me she is a ‘born again Christian’ and she believes Trump is a religious man. She told me several times that God has control of all of this. That she puts her faith in Him.

I get that a person can feel red inside. Because I feel blue inside. I have come to MY understanding watching politics for years now, and I have felt connected to the Democrats and their platform, their policy choices, all my life. I therefore wondered… if it was reversed: If a crazy Democrat became president – would I continue to support him because I so strongly believe in the party ‘policy’? What would it take to make me vote another party? How bad would it have to get?

So: Here’s where we are. As I stated above, it has gotten so bad that we have a president openly talking about denying the decision in a national election. We have a president who says he may not leave office January 2021. We have a president who does not care for the laws of our land. He dishonors the very forefathers who wrote them, who set up this system (not perfect by any means – but one man can not change it.) We have checks and balances that are being discarded. Democracy is truly being threatened.

After listening to our president now for 4 years I have learned he is a master of using language to keep us hanging, and to keep him from being responsible. “May or may not.” “Perhaps but we will have to see.” The only time he is firm on something is when it’s about him looking good. He made it happen.

So, I know his games. I know how we plays.

I wonder why I see it, and so many in the Republican Party do not. It’s so hard to figure out. I also wonder how we all can believe in the same God yet see policy choices so differently. But we do. And there is no changing minds – or hearts. And, we are more divided than ever.

And that’s why today is yes, another day – with another concern. Actually, there are many concerns for our country right now. Big concerns. Serious concerns. How can we have some chance of coming together even when policy issues differ so much? How can we remain respectful and live in peace? How can we maintain our democracy when the top is So reckless with it?

Yesterday, I commiserated On the phone with my bestie about all that is going on… and how crazy 2020 is. We talked politics, and then tried to move into other topics, but we came back to politics because it’s so much a part of our daily lives. Another day – another concern. We ended up trying to come up with a goal, or a motto, something to hold on to, and to keep us going. What did we decide on? Each day: We didn’t die. We woke up to a new day.

Another day. Another concern.